Thank you!

All the messages of love made me cry, but in a good way this time. Thanks for your comments, I am doing better today:)

Baby Blues

No, this is not an uplifting post. I am suffering with some sadness today. I know it has to do with once again getting postpartum, but this postpartum I really have reason for. When I got really bad baby blues with Sydney, one of the things that helped was just holding her. I don't have that luxury this time. The day started off with our goldfish dying, which never helps anything... it is almost 1pm and I'm still in my p.j.s. Yuck - I know I said when I get like this I will call somebody, but I am just venting in general cyberspace - sorry. I recently read in a magazine somewhere that women diagnosed with gestational diabetes are the most likely to get postpartum. I guess that means us women who always have diabetes have no choice in the matter either. Not that anyone does - I am just rambling.

Happy Halloween!

As many of you saw, on my facebook pictures that Sydney was being Snow White for Halloween. It is a little hard to see in these pictures, but the dogs were tied together being a 2 headed spider. Their costume didn't last very long though - they weren't getting along so we untied them. Sydney got her first blisters from trying to wear her heels while trick-or-treating. Zach handed out treats while Eran and I took Sydney. I think there were more wrappers in the garbage from what he had eaten than what he handed out. Oh the joys of this holiday!

Dog Run

So I found this little 5k race online for people who like to run with their dogs. It was clearly not advertised really well, and I think it was the first year it was held. There were about 20+ people there with their dogs. It was also a 10k race, so some of the sportier people there were running that. I am currently struggling to get back down to my 10 min. mile pace that I had prior to this last pregnancy... and I took 3rd place! I won a nice red bowl for Cal to eat his food out of. Ha! It was a nice run though, all on the U of U campus.

It's that time of year!

We were lucky enough to get to go 4 wheeling on Saturday. We went from Tibble Fork Res. to Cascade Springs. The weather was perfect, and as you can see from the picture the leaves are changing and it's gorgeous! The funny part was that we went in the afternoon, and Sydney was a little tired. Anyone who's been 4 wheeling knows it is not a smooth ride. That didn't matter to Sydney; she was on the back of my 4 wheeler and rested her head (in her helmet) on my back and was falling asleep! Then a bump would make her head slip off my back and she'd wake up. I guess when a kid is tired, he or she has just got to sleep! She must be growing again, but I don't know how that is possible since everybody already thinks she's a 5 year old...

my big little girl

Sydney is growing a little too fast for my tastes lately. She finished up her summer dance class and started preschool! She loves it so far. People always ask me if she started kindergarten this year just because she is so tall - no this is her first year of preschool! Many people have told me that I am doing well to be out of the house and getting her to these events so soon after our tragedy. Believe me, I have the desires to stay home in my room all day and cry, but that just causes my depression to be dominant in my life. I have to do the opposite of my inclinations to fight against the sadness taking over my life.

Baby Dylan photos

For those not on facebook, here is a link to photos of baby Dylan.
http://bishopimages.instaproofs.com